Another Lauren Oliver books to review after “Vanishing Girls”. I pick up “Before I Fall” from my bookshelf because recently, my TBR list getting longer and longer so I need to start reading everyday in order to decrease my to-be-read list.
Actually, I read “Before I Fall” way too early than “Vanishing Girls” but I have the urge to write the review because I, sincerely, like this book. More than I love “Vanishing Girls”. I like the story quite a bit, at first I thought this book would talking about love-triangle-cliche and other high school stuff, but it was more than that.
For popular high school senior Samantha Kingston, February 12—”Cupid Day”—should be one big party, a day of valentines and roses and the privileges that come with being at the top of the social pyramid. And it is…until she dies in a terrible accident that night.
However, she still wakes up the next morning. In fact, Sam lives the last day of her life seven times, until she realizes that by making even the slightest changes, she may hold more power than she ever imagined.
Maybe you think that this book was a dark book. No, it was not. I know, this book contains after death story, and a little bit supernatural touch, but how Sam dealt with the fact that she was died, crushed my heart a little bit. If you were a fan of “If I Stay” series by Gayle Forman, then I suggest you to read this book. Though they didn’t had the same plot story, but the general theme is same. Both of them had a quality that you can’t forget in the end of the story. Besides, I adore the two authors so much!
“Before I Fall” told in Sam point of view. Sam itself was a popular senior in her high school. She dated a popular football player, she made friends with other girls who sat in the same table everyday, and everyone in her school knows her (or can I say ‘scared’ of her?).
Sam wasn’t a good characters. No, scratch that. She was a bitch. She was shallow, self-centered, egoistical, and really mean. She blow away her sisters, she judged people as she liked, she bullied her school friends who was misfit, and she done something very terrible.
I agree with the review I read in Goodreads: I hate the beginning of this book and I doubt that anyone did. Samantha and her friends do not come across as people you would want to be friends with. They are cruel, unlikable, and the worst part is they don’t even seem to care. They’re bullies, plain and simple, and some of their actions can be hard to read.
And one day, she was realized that universe didn’t revolve around her. As you read in the blurb, Sam died in car crash. She caught in terrible accident after party in “Cupid Day”. Sam sat in passenger seat, something happen with the driver, and the next thing she knows she was died. It was so painful to read this part, you will feel the ache in the gut, but can’t stop reading because Lauren Oliver wrote this in the beautiful way.
The next morning, Sam wake up in her bed. Wearing the same clothes she wore yesterday, with the same action: her mother came to her bedroom, her sister annoy her in the morning, and she was late to go to school. Sam feels terrified because she realized that she lived her life before the accident. She did something terrible in that day and she knows maybe she need to fix things so she can die peacefully.
“But for some of us there’s only today. And the truth is, you never really know.”
― Lauren Oliver, Before I Fall
In the first day, Sam still the same girl. Mean, self-absorbed, and didn’t think about people around her except her self. She woke up in confuse the next day, because she still lived in the day before the accident. She did the same thing again and again, without knowing where the side of her life that need to be fix. Until she knows. That she was here to saved someone.
And for the ending… it was not a happy ending, but I also can’t say it was a sad ending. Everyone has their own ending for their story. But, I can’t help to feel pity for Sam because her story had to be end like that. Over all, I cheers Sam for her brave act and kindness. And also, I got the same feeling after reading this book because somehow, something between Sam and Kent made me remember a-punch-in-a-gut after reading “If He Had Been With Me”.
After reading this book, I realized that I need to live my life to the fullest and never leave the opportunities pass by without doing nothing. Life is precious and every single choice we make has an effect. It was way too inspirational and thought-provoking for me.
“Here’s another thing to remember: hope keeps you alive. Even when you’re dead, it’s the only thing that keeps you alive.”
― Lauren Oliver, Before I Fall